You can do whatever you want to do without having to check with him first. I spent about four months wages between January 2018 and last week taking care of sick kitties, and had 23 non-routine vet visits. I want my snuggler. I see some of my friends still in deep grief after months and even more than a year and I feel like theres something wrong with me. The Drs changed her medications and things just went downhill from there. I cant say I have those feelings about my mother. I just retired after 26 years 2 months ago. I dont feel nothing and totally relieved they are gone forever. It came out of nowhere and we were told right away that it was stage 4 and pretty much they could do nothing but keep her comfortable. Six weeks after my husband died, one of my children, age 16, told me she was a transgender girl. not getting enough sleep. To see the years of suffering from disease end and to see the years of suffering from abuse end brought me a release. Keep the conversation going by sharing your question, comment thought or experience with relief in the comments below. It is what it is, and with good CAUSE. That doesnt make me a bad person, but more of a realist in this situation. Its hard for me to separate the relief I have of not having to be around the bad behaviour brought on by addiction from a feeling of wanting him gone, though I know I never wanted him gone, just that awful illness. My wife and son keep trying to talk to man about it but they just dont understand the guilt I feel. I know that I'm supposed to feel relieved and thankful. I am 30 years old and now? Always controlling and manipulating people and situations, often badly. Ive never had an apology and my husband knows how much that has hurt me but does and says nothing. I felt relief for some reason. but i really dont care that he died . She has been battling cancer since 2006. If even the professionals couldnt handle it, that should tell you how bad the situation was. Melinda June 24, 2016 at 11:12 am Reply. Recognizing that you met the demands of caregiving all the way to the end is one of the best buffers against undeserved guilt. But he didnt. She did so much and she was disabled and there is nothing more incredible then having an amazing mother that can really do anything. When someone dies suddenly in a situation like your husbands, it is common for people to experience trauma themselves. Just horrible people who, like you say, just need gone. Re: #4, yes, Ive felt GREAT relief over a couple of family members deaths. But MIL called back angry and shouting, falsely accusing ME of claiming I had the POA (I was only too acutely aware as that had been a painful process for my husband). Focus on positive memories of your relationship with your care receiver, and relegate the negative ones to . A real life jerk August 18, 2021 at 12:03 am Reply, Forgive the typos, I didnt see them till I hit publish The errors I saw were that I moved out of the house where my wife and son live and the pain meds were morphine, Im sure theres more, please forgive them. They were both highly abusive people, ruined many peoples lives (and even caused other loved ones to die prematurely), AND were a menace to society at large. I have not cried since he died and am feeling relief that he is no longer suffering but also relief that I dont have to deal with the pain of our relationship any more. I almost ended up homeless and she wouldnt help me but she was supporting my sister. However, your deep grief is clouding your perception and interfering in your ability to see clearly the true nature of the situation. Please Pray I get through this ok. Ive read all the books and they all say these are normal feelings of grief. My only sense of relief was that they were in heaven. As an adult, after she died, I found the paper with the real score. She had manic depression all her life. Ignoring his loss may make him feel isolated. After a couple weeks, they gave her 24 hrs. I truely enjoyed reading all of the post about feeling relief when a toxic, mean, manipulative, narcissistic loved one dies. These include: Poor communication can erode the connection people have. I drained 2 liters of fluid from an inserted catheter in his side every other day. I am relieved for her that she no longer suffers such pain and turmoil on a day to day basis. Plus the pain in my heart and head will always be there even if I am to make my pain less felt. Thank you so much for the kind words about the site. Liver shut down so he filled up with fluid and ammonia in his brain. Persephone May 5, 2018 at 12:18 pm Reply. Since then I have been sad, but feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. But I still cry my eyes out at times. Love him, if you will, but do NOT reunite with him. I get great support from PFLAG, especially their Chicago based Parents of Transgender Individuals group. We will be thinking of you and hope our site is of some support in the months to come. Every time he told me he wanted to die a small piece of me would die that day. I didnt know how much I needed to see this until it was laid out in front of me in this post. That being said, youre not selfish for wanting more time with your mother. He feels like he cant function w/o her. Initial feelings of lust fade with time, which can make feelings of love seem less intense. If someone asked me how I felt about my brother dying, would I respond relieved? Of course not. But now I am about to lose my mom. After a big cry l feel relieved and refreshed. What shall I do? Antonia Potter June 13, 2021 at 2:53 pm Reply. You my friend have sewn that up in a nut shell. My MIL died today and all I fell is relief. Since she had mobility issues and my Mother had to work still, we were searching for full time care facilities to take care of her since my Mother couldnt do so in my Grandmothers state at that time. Its a long story. I lost my brother just a few days ago, and I felt oddly calm today. I get so much relief when he leaves again. I feel relief on a few levels. It was painful to be near him and I often didnt have anything to do with him for long stretches of time and avoided him as best I could. My prayers go with you. The emotions can be felt simultaneously . Yeah right! I latched onto the first man who showed me kindness. Dont feel guilty about reacting like a human. When he was picked up with the ambulance do to his aggression and uncontrollable behavior do to his dementia. The person was battling mental illness. Fast forward to this year, my dad got worse, but the sicker he got, the more he realized that he was about to get what he wanted. This article really helped me work through some of my grief. Im at a loss as far as grieving. Some of that is because shes now pain free but most of it is because she was not a nice person. Ive felt a lot of guilt over the relief I have felt at my husbands passing. This just made me so happy and a little teary. I hated him. I lost my alcoholic dad recently and have been confused by my relief. I offer my deepest condolences for the loss of your brother. I had determined not to comment myself because I did not want to upset my beloved husband. We will always have the memories to share and even keep to ourselves. One of the three people in my life that I love deadly and I shouted at him. Basically, for the past five and a half years, Ive been a cat nurse running a hospice. Your son is free and possibly somehow you know he is happy now. Fri 24 Oct 2014 10.00 EDT Last modified on Thu 8 Feb 2018 12.07 EST I have two young children. Oh Jo, timing is an amazing thing sometimes. We would like to show you a description here but the site won't allow us. Little Trangerine January 14, 2021 at 9:43 pm Reply. Kathy Mawer August 13, 2016 at 6:02 pm Reply, Eleanor, That is right. The bad part of this is now I have this strange, empty feeling. I was blessed to be able to retire early to care for him full time the last 3 years, but it was very hard. I am honestly amazed at what you did for your brother. I think this will really help me process things, thank you so much. It can keep families in a state of constant anxiety, guilt, shame, and hyper-vigilance, always fearing an arrest, overdose or death. Having addictions to whatever came his way. I felt so selfish that I was so relieved I didnt have to take of or worry about him anymore. I babysit these kids and their mom just passed away. He felt his Autism was a curse. Relief isnt bad at all. He wanted to leave. I would give anything to have told him that. We knew he hadnt been 100% after his lymph glands were up in the summer, we told him to go to the Dr and get it investigated. Thank you. I'm going to pull a serious 8th-grade book report move here and start the conversation by defining relief. If those I loved were lost. And as such, you enjoy the freedom that comes from not having your husband around. I am relieved that I dont have to see the addiction anymore and that it no longer will trouble our livesbut I would give anything if just the addiction could have died and he could still be herewhole, happy, laughing, and free. It's also human to feel a tinge of relief when the distress youfelt as a result of havingto watch your loved one struggle has come to an end. My son was kind of the same. These relationships are often marital or parent/child relationships, but can be true of any type of relationship where a person feels constantly trapped and controlled by another person. I often go to that door andcremember the wave of relief I felt that day. I miss her terribly but am dealing with what I need to do and, most of all, glad that we had our life together. A burden I could now set down and not carry any longer. I truly love her with all my heart and I hope she is at peace. That was the toughest thing to witness and then learn to accept. June 08, 2015 | "It was so hard to be with my husband at the end. Ive known people who have died suddenly, and there is all of this what-if thinking you go through with that, but with a terminal illness, there really are no what-if thoughts especially when you understand how deadly the illness is. I know I have no choice. You do not feel relief because you wanted them to die, but because the anxiety and constant fear has been removed. Myth: Your relief mean you hated the person and wanted them to die. I shouted at him and thats something I can never forgive myself for doing. Last April he took his life. I am finally free from her years of mean-spiritedness, insults, gaslighting, her pitting me against my sister, her invalidating me, and her general crazy-making. But I kicked in and helped cut my son down . He had limited hospice care. Relief cant even express what I felt. Im now angry at my wife and son and there is no reason to be. You likely felt this relief because you were unknowingly experiencing anticipatory grief, which you can read about here: https://whatsyourgrief.com/anticipatory-grief/, Relief is normal. Your hope was for stability, not death. My mom also died from covid and also had dementia. Shannon January 8, 2022 at 3:35 am Reply. It is so common to feel as if there is no way out other than suicide, but please know there are ALWAYS other ways. This does get a little tricky when trauma or abuse is so severe that you may truly be glad they died because it brings a sense of justice, or because no matter what you would have felt fear and anxiety knowing the person was still in the world. After all you gave and went throughyou DESERVE overwhelming joy and peace. Have you connected with a counselor or a support group? You can feelrelief that distressing emotions and physical pain have ended, but this relief does not lessen the devastation and intense sadness caused by the death of a person who you love very dearly. He was always trying to take my husbands place as their father. She was a wonderful sister and close friend when she was sober. She just wants to cry about how much she misses here and how empty she feels. I lost her at least 3 years ago anyways and Ive been carrying the burden since then of seeing her even further slip away. Our son, now 21, has likewise had suicidal ideation all his life and was hospitalized for it four weeks ago but is now out. I think feeling a sense of relief that its over, and that now, finally, we can start to move on, is natural, and normal. I was blown away by your comment because thats exactly how I feel. #8. In the end she had trouble walking so she was in and out of hospitals and rehab facilities to get her to walk. For many, relief feels like something they should be ashamed of, it feels wrong, or as though it's something they shouldn't admit to. After that brief few minutes I tried to do cpr to get him back and I prayed and prayed to God to send him back to help me save him. I'd learned about things like " complicated grief " in graduate school, and I'd treated my fair share of people who were struggling with loss. My relationship with my partner - their father - has fluctuated over the last few years between. Your article completely confirmed that for me and I feel even better now about that emotion of relief. I feel weird because Im relieved that both of them are gone. I might also get really sad all over again next week, or whatever. That didnt stop me from feeling that a horrible person feeling relief when my husband passed from an accidental overdose. Feeling that other carers seem to manage better than you. One relief from suffering and the other relief from abuse of family members. Over the last few months, I have encountered several new circumstances that have only reinforced the feelings of guilt that seem to ride in the wake of the grief that permeates my life. She felt safe here even though there was an adjustment she had to go through with moving schools and moving to a new area. I had to sit with my parents hoping for a miracle while he convulsed and gagged. I cried, and i probably wont stop.for a while, but I was happy she wasnt going through anymore pain and suffering because of her arthritis. I will keep you in prayer and hope you are comforted by friends and family in this stressful time.I hope you have a faith community to lean on, if not, know there are others praying for you and your well being. And Im not a bad person. So, I'm not sure I would go so far as to use the adjective"happiness",but based on this definition feeling relief after a death, in certaincircumstances, does kind of make sense. I certainly wont cry over them either! I had him on the toilet and begged him to use the toilet. me! We got the dreaded call. Isabelle Siegel February 9, 2021 at 9:33 am Reply. But with the disease, he was scary, manipulative, dishonest, unpredictable, selfish, uncaring, and abusive. Steve suffered for over twenty years from alcoholism and bipolar disorder. I only hope and pray the same fate doesnt await him and us. I just feel like there is a better life waiting on the other side, wherever that is. There is no magic way to resolve your guilt,but what we hope you will remember from today's post, if nothing else, is that relief is extremely common and incredibly normal in grief. 774 likes, 18 comments - Bonnie Matthews || Homeschool Coach (@thequalifiedhomeschooler) on Instagram: ""Don't you want to put them on the bus and have a little . Always makes it better to know you are not alone in your feelings. We were inseperable for a year unless he was in the hospital or nursing home. Darrel February 16, 2017 at 10:50 pm Reply, In 2004 I lost my youngest sibling to alcoholisim. Its all working out. Bipolar disorder. For this reason, I feel a sense of relief accompanied by guilt for feeling this way. Your brother was lucky to have such a loving brother as yourself taking care of him. I laugh a lot more than I ever did. I am also glad to realize that there are others that feel relief along with the sadness. I felt the only variable we were able to control was the pain by giving him as many painkillers his body could have handled. It was a getaway for me after we just had my sons funeral. easy access to parks and playgrounds. Marie November 22, 2021 at 1:43 am Reply. I didnt realize that was our last good conversation. It is as though I am now trying to find the light or the good in things for my Mother (almost a repeated cycle- that I am frightened to go though). When we lost her I did feel some relief, but I of course miss her greatly because I had wished she would had sobered up like I did. She is not a bad person. In fact, I was glad that I and the world were finally rid of them and their destructive actions. I cant believe Im free from all this. She died 9 days later. I was just angry. You may even feel emotions that seem inconsistent with one another. My dad loved my mom, but put her above all else and put up with her narcissism. He wanted nothing to do with either. Pain killer addiction, and 3. After her father died, Bernadette Wright said she felt "huge . I was swept with this relief and it stoped me for a minute. Several factors may cause someone to lose feelings in a relationship. He was 16. Fact:Feeling relief in this situations means you are glad their suffering (and/or your suffering as a caretaker) has ended. Remember Your Reason (s) Every time you feel a wave of guilt coming on, mentally (or physically) list all the reasons why you moved away. All of my life Ive always been the one to encourage others, but Im at the point where I need someone to encourage me. The Daisy would impel me. We went away on a trip and couldnt take him with us, when he went to a friends house, he used.. then ended up in a motel where he overdosed. Deanna Clark Willingham May 31, 2016 at 1:17 pm Reply. I do feel like Ive set that burden down and feel I can breathe again. Robin December 21, 2019 at 3:10 pm Reply. But I miss him so much. He was an intelligent Autistic which they call Savants. My stepkids stepfather (husband of their biomom) just died suddenly and Im relieved. Anonymous March 30, 2020 at 10:14 pm Reply. Wondering where he was, what he was doing, him begging for money, and expecting his death were all very stressful for myself. This may be the case for a whole slew of reasons, many of which stem back to an interesting assumption about how emotions work. Ever heard of the phrase "mixed emotions"? So while we're busting assumptions and misconceptions, let's discuss a few common experiences related to relief. Isabelle Siegel January 26, 2021 at 11:19 am Reply. Both emotions can exist at the same time. I started grieving once he became bedridden 2 weeks after the diagnosis. I have been so ashamed of feeling this emotion, but finally came to understand it wasnt for his death but for the hyper-vigilant state of fear, worry, anxiety, etc. I started grieving once I saw he still wanted to live and had more things to do in this world. Thats the case here, too. So here I am. I know it already. I miss her though. And I feel bad that their mom is going through this, even though I dont like her much either. You can find Whats Your Grief? But he did steal, lie, manipulate and suck the life out of our family through his addiction a painful 18 years jail, prison, losing every job. Communication is a vital part of most relationships. Ive lost many loved ones, and grieved them all yet every day I still find myself thinking of her and getting upset even like cursing her. Ditto ditto ditto, Bruce November 6, 2020 at 9:23 pm Reply. But I have never been suicidal. But since my husband died, I feel relieved. If you only yelled once during all that, you are a saint. I've been daydreaming about it breaking free from the confines of marriage and being single again. The night I had to call for help he had fallen down on the floor upstairs in his room. Contact Dear Abby at . I pray daily to never treat anyone mean and hateful, because words hurt so bad and they can remain in your soul long after death. This is one of the most common reasons people leave a relationship. Feeling like that has made me feel a little guilty. They heard the commotion over a baby monitor I had put in his house in case I needed to take out the garbage they would listen for him to fall or whatever. I dont feel any judgement for you at all. Emergency workers were able to get a pulse and he was rushed to the hospital. Sole caregiver stress is exhausting. Everyone was suffering. Its kinda sacry how happy I feel . I got to my house and literally passed out on top of my shoes and jacket and flashlight and everything else I needed to bring home. Or a real life jerk. Myth:Feeling relief in this situation means you wanted the personto die. All rights reserved. Myth:Feeling relief in this situation means youwanted the person to die. He was suddenly taken ill in October 2019, with a ruptured stomach ulcer it was only thanks to the consultant on duty that he survived as he was the specialist. I miss the parts of her that cracked jokes, and giggled. Relief that I no longer have to put her in her hated crate whenever I went out or watch her pace if she thought I may go out; relief I no longer see her get confused due to diminished sight, hearing, possible onset of senility; relief she died before experiencing pain from pancreatitis, unresponsive to extended medical care. I love and miss them so much. Thank you so much Garry. Relief from no longer dealing with his addiction & severe depression and resulting behavior. Suzanne October 4, 2019 at 11:36 pm Reply. Im realizing its natural to feel relief and it shouldnt be criticized. Required fields are marked *. So, I'm not sure I would go so far as to use the adjective "happiness", but based on this definition feeling relief after a death, in certain circumstances, does kind of make sense. Unfortunately this feeling of relief in my case was quickly filled with shock, trauma, and pain so unbearable I didnt think I would survive. As long as he doesnt get really sick from this, itll all be good. I completely understand feeling guilty, but please know this: You did not do anything wrong. As much as I know that guilt is not healthy or fair to myself, I still feel it a lot. I got so frustrated after 4hours sleep in 8 days I kinda lost my cool. a rapid drop in body . I dont have to have been present to know thats true. Bring the topic up from time to time to let him know that he can talk with you if he wishes. After my husbands cancer diagnosis last July, he was given weeks to months to live. His hatred toward me grew steadily and he refused all his meds except the moribund for the pain. I loved her very dearly and I was very close, but her depression had got bad over the last two years and her drink problem too. Im exhausted from Stanley. My older brother passed away from ending his own life. Frankie, Im so sorry for your loss. I cant admit that to anyone else without them Im a monster, so Im sending it out into the internet. When he committed suicide, I felt soooo much relief but being with him for 14 years, I loved him also. Cant see doing it another way. Sue, I imagine mixed emotions is exactly the term for it. My mom just passed away on the 17th at 68 yrs old. SHALOM, Justina October 1, 2022 at 11:17 am Reply. I was with her in the ICU when she passed and was overcome with sadness and desparately wanting to rewind our life a few years, maybe to do things better. I feel happy and relef . She died in 2017. Zainab Yusuf, a mother of two tells EMMANUEL OJO how her husband, Najim Yusuf, a 45-year-old truck driver and businessman, was swept away by flood in the Alakuko area of Lagos State on May 14 . This past Monday she spoke to me and said she is ready to go. Yes, of course. Im glad you found this post helpful and that it showed you how normal and okay it is to feel relief after a death. She resented being a mother. I expected many more years with her. lack of oxygen. Someone above mentioned their loved one had alcoholism and there were two of him: the loving person and the abusive addict. Thank you for letting me share. I think it's something a lot of married people go through from time to time, and although it's a difficult thing to talk . And I can see how itd be taboo to admit this feeling or talk about it, but thanks for doing so. My dad just passed away from Pancreatic Cancer. We started process of divorce b/c I couldnt take the actions from his addiction any longer. Ive been dealing with such rollercoasters of emotions because I just lost my brother to an overdose. I talked to him on the phone that very morning. I have described him as being passively suicidal for the last 3 years of his lifewhen a MRSA infection started complicating chronic pain, mental health and addiction issues. His will proved that, too.) He went to rehab but relapsed and refused to acknowledge or get help for mental issues. Philip -- when bewildered. Is it helping at all? Alexandra May 31, 2016 at 7:51 am Reply, Most beautiful n needed email in a while <3, YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS WILL NOT BE PUBLISHED. The last time we had had a heart to heart, he flat out told me that he had died 2 years ago. about the known risks of being a heroin addict that I was living. Same here. I thought seeing my other siblings would make me break down, but it didnt. She makes noises with her voice while snoring which indicates she is feeling some pain. She was a month away from turning 89 when she passed. Thank you for your article, it had very good descriptions of the feelings associated with relief after a death. 2. When I foolishly told her about some medications I had begun taking, she told me, Yeah, I told my friends about your medications and how you didnt need them. You did notwantthem to leave you, you would give anything for them to have been cured and to have lived pain free. He chosen no treatment but continued to go on living as if he was going to live much longer. I was recently broken up with around six to seven months ago, and even though there could still possibly be feelings there for this person, I cannot explain how much of a relief it was when I was broken up with. I cant seem to get over this loss it is killing me. Shannon January 8, 2022 at 3:12 am Reply. Please contact someone locally and get some help for what you are experiencing. I struggled every time I saw her to give her something to live for, laugh at, and encouraged her to get better so we could see more of each other. There was more than one occasion when I counseled a friend or family member that it was OK to feel relief that X was over. He is scheduled to be released into a less secure setting in a couple of weeks, but hes already started using again, sneaking cocaine into the nursing home at least four times. The person's death is devastating, but the relief from those constant feelings and experiences is undeniable. I have worked through much of it but it still jumps up at me once in a while. He was mentally and verbally abusive and (Im sure) at times may have physically abused her along with other family members. Jakes end was very shorta week between diagnosis and losing him on Monday, but the care he needed to try to bring him back to living was intense, and the prospect of keeping that up for weeks, months or years was daunting. The last 3 or 4 years of her life were challenging for my Mother and my Stepfather as she lived with them for over 20 years. Or they are afraid to come out because they percieve that their parents will react badly. Perhaps it is shock I am misreading as relief? Thank you for posting this. My mother is now very unwell and I am so burnt out trying to be empathetic to her although it continues to haunt me how disinterested and detached she has been as a parent to me. Also, my parents put me down all the time telling me that I wasnt going to make it in life, or life would just stop when you get older because (according to my dad) it was going to get worse. Hed do that every 15 minutes due to the fluid pressure in his abdomen. I am on the other side of the situation now, where I have a brother (32 years old) that has been using narcotics for the past 10 years, most of the time living in our family home and being physically and financially abusive to my parents. I was actually googling how does one feel after a death of a loved one after terminal illness and came across this site. this might sound baffling - my friends question me w. About 6 weeks later my mom died after getting COVID pneumonia she had combative Alzheimers dementia. I was as good a wife as I could be. Relief is an emotion I think many do feel ashamed of, despite how common it is. However, with my pet i feel sad, but also relief which I did not feel with family. When I found dad on the 1st, I knew he was gone, but I also want to know why did I feel that relief for a few short minutes?? My mother stayed home and cared for him until she literally couldnt do it any longer (physically or emotionally), when the effects of his Parkinsons were complicated by a stroke. Thank you for this post. She wrote that she didnt want to go through another night of pain. She insulted my husband and told me my sister was her best friend. 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